10 days left of school I feel…..
I have mixed feelings. I feel relieved. I feel sad already. I feel a ton of different things. All the hard work that I did during the school year has been completed. All my high school goals have been achieved. AP tests are done. My school athletics are about to be done. I finally got my Eagle Scout. I couldn’t be happier. But, I am gonna miss it though. For some people, It’s the last time I’ll ever see them. Social media doesn’t count as talking. I want to hang out and talk to all these people but I know it’s probably not going to happen. This school isn’t just a school to me either. I grew up in the school. I walked around as a toddler in my mom’s classroom playing with geometry shapes as toys and having plenty of injuries from corners of tables. It was like a second home to me. Before I start making movies for a living and hopefully becoming famous, I’m going to get the most out of this island and the people on it.
I have been trying to decipher my emotions about the matter for the past month. I have been fortunate enough to have been extremely busy with soccer, academic decathlon and homework so I haven’t had the time to be sad about it. I’m quite excited to set out on the next phase of my life. I’ll get to meet new people, see new places and the usual “new” things seniors spew. But for the same reason, I am excited to leave, I am sad to leave. It feels as if the years of relationship and reputation I have cultivated will go to waste. I have invested so much into them; knowing they will wither away as we go our separate ways makes it tough. I have been comfortable for so long now, I fear anything that isn’t so. Then again, the only thing sadder and scarier than leaving Kayhi would be never leaving Kayhi. Leaving it now before the memory of it gets sour or bland is the best way I could do it justice. I have nothing but awesome memories with awesome students and teachers here. I don’t think I could repay what the teachers, students, and community have done for me in my time here. Thank you.
I feel like it’s not real. I was just a freshman yesterday, I don’t believe I have 10 more days of high school left. There are so many emotions with being a senior and graduating: excitement, sentiment, ready to leave, or wanting to stay. I honestly don’t know which emotion to feel yet. When I think about it too much, I get really reminiscent and sentimental. The idea of never again sitting in a classroom with the people I grew up with is really sad to me. Never playing another high school sport. Never sitting in pep club at the CCCC. Never being in the same place at the same time with all of these people..ever again. Everyone always talks about how there are lots of “lasts” your senior year. But no one ever talks about how those “lasts” turn into “never agains”. But of course, there is the other side of me that is really excited to graduate and close this chapter. It is time to fly from the nest and I feel as ready as I’ll ever be. I’m excited to get out and find new people and have new experiences– but I will never forget Kayhi and everyone who helped me get to where I am today.
I can’t even describe how I feel. Y’all I was a freshman a couple of years ago and now I am preparing to walk down the carpet. You know that fancy carpet at graduation reminds me of the red carpet that celebrities walk down on. Anywho, I am graduating in 16 days and It’s bittersweet. I won’t be able to come back to classes and talk with the freshmen or even just sit in the office to talk to the staff. Now now, I don’t cry but when I do I ball my eyes out. I’m excited for college and exploring other places, but I will miss Kayhi deeply and the people here.
Terrified and excited all at the same time. Part of me wants to go home after the third period and the other part wants to spend as much in this cocoon as I can. This year has flown by! I honestly thought there was way more than 10 days left. It’s all starting to feel way too real. Kayhi has been good to me. When I first moved to Ketchikan I was pissed at my parents and now I don’t really want to leave, this community is like no other.
I feel like there is no word to describe how I feel. I know I’m ready for summer and college but boy is it scary. Hopefully everything goes well, I’ve pretty much just been improvising and figuring it out as I go along so I hope that keeps working. Other than that, I have no idea what’s going to happen. That’s both terrifying and extremely exciting and kind of a relief. Thankfully Mr. Lund has prepared me for everything that lies ahead, so that makes me not worry as much as I would otherwise.