Softball becomes self defense when you get a line shot hit at you when expecting a ground ball. I won’t miss this, but I will miss just about everything else.
I’m having some weird feelings about playing my last softball game, but at some point it’s over for everybody. After going 12 years playing and falling in love with this sport, I wonder if I’ve made the right decision to not play in college.
I wrote last year that I wasn’t sure if I was going to play in college or not… now I’m not.
Freshman me was never concerned about playing my last softball game or what it would be like without it, but now I find myself constantly thinking about it.
I step onto the field and I take it all in, like if it were my last because I have taken for granted what it has felt like to be apart of something like this, something greater than myself. I play and I’m not playing for me, I’m playing for everyone around me and we rely and trust each other and I think that’s what I’m going to miss, is the connections with everyone.
Between the lack of motivation and the fact that I haven’t done anything all year, playing softball in college would just add to the stress of all of it.
I had a hard enough time picking a school as it was, I couldn’t imagine throwing softball in there and making my decision that much harder.
With the knowledge I have now, I would go back and say junior year Jenna, it’s okay that you’re not playing softball in college. It’s time to let it go and appreciate the fact that it’s ending and that you had a good run.
I’ve played 18 hours playing softball this year, 72 over my career. Including practice time, I’ve spent over 500 hours as part of the Kayhi softball program.
Throughout that, I’ve gone through two gloves, four pairs of cleats, one softball bag, one mask and endless amounts of sunflower seeds and gum.
I’ve acquired two scars on my left knee and one on my hand that are still there, along with countless times I’ve been hit in the leg or ankle with a ball.
Leaving behind this game is big for me, and I’ve never really thought about leaving it behind until last year. But it’s something that most people have to go through. Most people do end it after high school.
I know I’m going to miss parts of the game, but I won’t miss the bruises or the low grade hypothermia.